Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with
all these questions
Feels like I missed
my alarm and slept in
slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Yo my mind is a house
with walls covered in lyrics
Threw all over the place
and songs in the mirrors
I was written all over the floors
all over the chairs
You get the uncut version of life
and I go downstairs
That's where I write
when I'm in a bad place
I need to release
And let out the version of NF
you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls
with both of my fists til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of
how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused now
that's the room I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all
I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank
I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not I'm in here
so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger
that I carry around
Wish I could take a match
and burn this whole room
to the ground
Matter of fact I think
Imma burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason
just moved you down
You pull me in the corner
so you can see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs
and beat me til I screamed and
I cried Congratulations
You'll always
have a room in my mind
But Imma keep the door shut
and lock the lyrics inside
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with
all these questions
Feels like I missed
my alarm and slept in
slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion
Yo my mind is a house with walls
covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint cover em up
like it never happen
Say I wish I could change
Are you confused
Come upstairs and
I show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets
just keeps getting
fuller of it seems
The moment I walk into is
the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time
I look at these things
But it's hard to look past
when this is the room
where I sleep
I look around One of the worst things
I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized
that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things
I wrote was I was shot with a call
But I should just stop now
we ain´t got enough
room in this song
And I regret the fact
that I struggle trying
to find who I am
And I lie to myself and
say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing
like it’s out of my hands
Then get ticked off
whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching
these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going
I'll probably still be there
when I die
Congratulations
You'll always have
a room in my mind
The question is
Will I ever clean
the walls off inside
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with
all these questions
Feels like I missed
my alarm and slept in
slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion
So this room of my house
no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room in
I won't let no one in there
Cause if I do there's a chance
That they might disappear
and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally
scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors
to open up but this doors not
Cause I don't want you to have
the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person
that I can blame
when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscious
I know that shutting the wall
down ain't solving the problem
But I didn't built this house
because I thought
it would solve ´em
I built it because I thought
that it would be safer in there
But it's not
I'm not the only thing
that's living in here
Fear came to my house
years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
Cause I've been dealing
with this ever since
I thought that he would leave
but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room
and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position
it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside
where he came from but I never can
Cause in order to do
that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking
I don't know anymore
Inside this mansion